hmmm…. not sure where to start this one. 2012 will probably go down as one of the most the significant years of my life. I mean there have been a lot events in my life and years that have been awesome, memorable, but I don’t think I’ve experienced as much change, both good and bad, as I did this past year.
There’s no reason to recap the most significant events again but if you care to read about it you can read some of my posts from earlier this year.
From racing and training standpoint I started the year racing my bike and had a lot of fun. After a year of racing ironman it was fun to focus on a single sport. I craved the simplicity. I stopped racing in march to focus on what was happening in my life and try to get back on track as I was bit lost. I had completely lost my motivation to race or train. I kept moving to not sit at home and dwell on things that ultimately were out of my control, but it was more of an escape than training for anything.
Heading to Zion with Slater & Co. in mid may was a huge turning point as far as finding out what I wanted to do and where the next phase of my life would take me. I wanted to run. As I have mentioned on here many times before I always knew I would turn to ultra running at some point but just wasn’t sure when. It sounds cheesy/cliche but at the time when things were at their worst running saved me. Just getting our the door and running by myself on the trails for hours let me think like I never had before. It completely simplified my life.
I’m not going to recap all my training and racing but the fall was major turning point in every aspect of my life. I became a runner and started racing and loving every minute on the trails. I accepted the things I couldn’t control in my life and worked towards doing things that made me happy. It took a long time, a lot of rough days, but over the course of year I learned more than at any other time in my life. I have come out of what has been the toughest thing I have ever faced a better person. I believe I now have a firm grasp of who I am, what makes me happy, and what I want out of life. I’m not saying I never thought like this before but going through what I did changed the way I thought and the way I’m going to live my life.
As bad as things were I don’t have a single regret. Not saying that I always did the right things or made the right decisions but if it took going through all of that to get to the place I feel like I’m headed then it was all worth it.
built up a a new bike for a new year. Thanks to Pete, Brad, & Velo Hangar.
cheers to the new year.
I have feeling 2013 is going to be a good one. I have good plan of what I want to do but I’ll write about that later. This is about saying goodbye to 2012 and taking about all I have learned in the past 12 months and using that to ensure my health and happiness going forward.
Stats for 2012:
- Cycling (road, mtb, cx): 10,657 miles
- Running: 1,720 miles
- I trained considerably less hours than 2010 & 2011
- I had more fun racing and training than I did in 2010 & 2012
- I just wanna keep running!